Already as I type this, the enemy is scathing mad, because he says in vain, God forbid this draws more people to Christ. I say, “back up satan. You are powerless to God’s purposes for anything and anyone.”
I had the opportunity this past weekend to hide out with my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ Alone. I say opportunity because I didn’t take myself there, He in fact lead me and kept me there as I worked out hard things for 22 hours. I didn’t really even go in with a happy heart, I went heavy hearted. Granted my old nature would have run from my home, sat in a parking lot somewhere and just cried it out not really crying to anyone, or maybe even in my younger days I would have gotten dressed up and gone out to party like the world to escape the misery.
So instead, because I am His and He Is Mine, God brought me to a closet at 5pm in my home, not seasoned with any prayers, but a blank closet, but to Him it was already full!
I didn’t even turn on the closet light for the first couple hours, I laid on the rock hard marble floor and just cried and prayed to my Father. As He spoke to me, words were flowing up and so I flipped on the light to journal what He was gracing me to feel and share. I looked up and I saw 2 very soft oversized black robes and 4 nearly brand new velvet curtains. I had no idea these things were here, but He provided them to me to wrap me up and to lay down on. Even a pillow was there bungee corded together on the shelf as if to say, sleep here alone with me tonight. So I did. How does the Lord Love me? It blows my faith-filled heart and mind. But He helps me see great big glimpses every day as I turn and Trust Him with my life.
We had just come off of an emotional week, Birthdays, Gary celebrating remission from cancer, traveling to Mexico with Live Love to enjoy time with our Kids, a Thanksgiving feast with GMS, packing party for operation Christmas child and Covid attempting to deter all of our happenings. It was all so much. I know the schemes of the enemy behind the scenes so as always I encouraged myself and continued rejoicing through every thing trusting that nothing could stop The Lord Almighty but what He reminded me of was that He delights in Our Love to Him when we simply spend time with Him. Granted, every day I sit with Jesus, I walk and talk and pray to My Father but He wanted my alone time for an extended time, my undivided attention, with no distractions. How precious is He. He is Holy and Sovereign and wants my fleeting time for Him still.
He wanted me Trust Him with my time with Him. I had to know that intentional time with Him will never, ever return void.
Better is one day in Your Courts Lord than thousands elsewhere. I found Living water where there was a dry and desolate place needing to be filled. Some people will mock because they don’t really believe that He Is Who He says He Is. But this faith doesn’t come by accident, it comes by Grace, from the believing that He Is the I Am, The Lion of Judah, The Defender, The Refuge, The Strength, The Joy, as I am continually seeking The Mystery of All of Him and His Grace ever flowing, lavishly bestowed upon me.
“A mystery in biblical language is not a puzzle that is still waiting to be solved, but a secret that can be known only when God reveals it.” Sinclair Ferguson
As I came away from my time with Him, I was changed even more. You can’t spend hours with Jesus Christ and not be changed. This is what He wants His children to know. Because even better than a best friend, what He says is always good and true. When His Word speaks to my heart, I must deny myself and Love as He has loved me first. And if I know myself, and thankfully I do now, I am extraordinarily grateful for His Power over little me. Time with Him causes me to surrender.
Sunday (after time spent with Him) Nov 22 was one of the best days of my life and it had nothing to do with what I’ve been doing and who I’ve been living life with…. the source of my Joy, Is undoubtedly In Christ Alone. And The Truth is, if I need that reminder then I know friend, so do you.
“Cause me to hear Thy Lovingkindness in the morning; for in Thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift up my soul unto Thee.” Psalm 143:8
“Cast thy burden upon The Lord, and He shall sustain thee: He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.” Psalm 55:22
I’ve got the joy joy joy joy down in my heart!