GMS Testimony for The Lord

I wanted to share a glimpse of how my heart and GMS has changed dramatically from what it was back when we started this long journey in 1998…Jeff came alongside and joined us in 2000..The basic elements are the same, but the foundation has completely changed. In 2009 I had a divine encounter with the risen King Savior, Jesus Christ. I was transformed and I was able then to surrender my life to Christ, I was 33 years old (and GMS was already 9 years in the making). Most interestingly enough though is that I called myself a ‘christian’ my whole life but still always going my own way, controlling my life, selfish, agenda driven; never really understanding God’s Unfailing, Everlasting Love fully, madly, and deeply like I do now. It was when I realized God called me to be a follower of Jesus. It was when He revealed to me that His death on the cross was for me.. personally. My life before, I was a slave to sin in my heart, slave to myself and fear, unable to overcome death; but because of God’s great grace and mercy He has given me life, eternal in which I could never earn by being good enough. It is by faith I have been saved, not by works so I cannot boast. In humility I bow to Jesus, my Redeemer. When one is called by God, it is life changing and it is undeniably a little scary. God takes over. At the time of conversion I had a little umbrella of protection, as I walked God revealed to me His nature very slowly and perfectly. He is a good protective Father. I stayed tightly under His umbrella, not looking to the right or to the left – plainly walking in obedience – Then God in His faithfulness, gave me a bigger umbrella – He extended it out to my family – His magnificent hand was on my husband and my kids no matter what, they were His and I was The Lord’s instrument. A difficult endeavor to lay my life down for the hearts of my family – the consuming pride in me loved to rear it’s ugly head and it did for lots of years until God showed and taught me through my insecurities a Love greater than the love of my family. I thought how could He die for me – I did not even know who He was – but He knew me, He created me and knows the number of the very hairs on my head-all the while I was doing my selfish shenanigans and holding a deep resentment over my life. I never realized how futile my life was until Christ came in and changed it. GMS was always a small thriving company – although stressful, good teams were built over the years, they came and they went, working with excellence was always a top priority because of the nature of Gary. So we had it going on. We ‘loved’ our team but we loved the only way we knew how because we did not know LOVE. We tried always to “do the right thing” – Here’s the kicker – there was a period of about 2 years God plucked me out, grew me up in Him then placed me back in but in a much different position – He said, “you are God’s Steward” not ‘owner’ – He revealed that “I own everything and apart from me you have nothing”. Initially He protected me from much spiritual battle within myself so I could start implementing some of the ideas He had. This was very unsettling because I felt so new – Like I had just learned to fly and being a people pleaser, I knew I would have critics and discouragers. He said it’s not about you, it’s about Me. There were lots of thorns in my flesh… But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is perfected in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest on me. That is why, for the sake of Christ, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.…
He doesn’t want people to see me, He wants people to look at me and see Him and ask what is the Hope they see in me. God placed a team of strong godly women mentors and prayer warriors when we moved to Cali – He gave me a church family that were encouragers and not doubters. I was like a Timothy, a sponge, because God had revealed His Love to me my heart was open and ready to humbly receive so much more. We are always growing, always changing. My passionate love for Jesus became so overwhelming that I didn’t know how to compartmentalize it. It just was! Jesus said, I am not meant to be compartmentalized – I am The Way, The Truth and The Life – no one comes to The Father except through me. Not just on Sundays, and not just in your Bible Studies – The Life. So see this umbrella, see these people? I am extending my Love to everyone that sets foot into the company I have sustained and through you, your passion is to not keep me to yourself, but share what I have done, in you and through you. Share the passionate love I have for everyone and that while you were still sinners Christ died for you. You are a servant leader, you are to be a steward of the hearts within this company. He says in Matt 25:23 His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Enter into the joy of your master!’ The Lord knew exactly where I would be today… I have worked in every single position of the company over the many years – so when I pray thanking God for you – it is because He provided you here, by His Providence you are here, so I could be here. I am not privileged, I am only a servant for Christ and here He has raised me up so that I can confidently and boldly share with you Who He Is and that He Loves you and is desperately waiting to have a personal relationship with you. As I continue to grow in my Faith, trusting in The One True King, He keeps providing in abundance people alongside me helping to show me how. I am very flawed, I am very weak, by nature I am an introvert, but because of Christ in me I have changed. My expectations are very healthy for myself and for others because God reveals the hearts instead of the actions. I am able to keep the main thing, the main thing. My greatest war strategy is through prayer. I pray daily for strength and courage. Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ Who gives me strength. I could never have imagined the eternal life I live today before I knew Jesus.This is how Christ has shown me to love and to lead and I am grateful to be here today to do it. The Privilege to share the incomprehensible Love of Jesus, The entire reason we celebrate Christmas and in hopes that You may ask me Who He is and Believe by Faith and receive His gift of eternal life today.

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