My Lord, I did not choose You. Forgiven and Redeemed

When I think about The Lord, what always brings me to my knees is how merciful He is… he reveals to His children their need for a Savior, plain and simple. For 33 years I walked the earth thinking I was self sufficient and had no need. I always thought it was my life and mine to do whatever I wanted with it. This is where the gospel met me and grace renewed me. I was raised to believe in God and Jesus as Savior so if you would have asked me, I would have told you I was a Christian, looking back I’m assured now that I was, however growing up, I only assumed I was. And He is Powerful to give His children His Blessed Assurance. I did believe there was a God, a distant God Who created everything but I didn’t know He created it for Himself, I believed He created it for me. So in light of that lie, I lived a life of sin, believing life was all about me, therefore lies, cheating, stealing were my repertoire. All the while not recognizing it was sin, certainly not sin against A Holy God, at all. In April 2009 (married 9 years, grant 5, Olivia 1) everything changed. The Lord in His goodness and mercy to me, met me by Way of His Holy Spirit in my brokenness, but In the middle of my seemingly enjoyable debauchery and drunkenness. Nothing of the sort was unusual, this was our way of life, frequenting bars, nightclubs partaking in sexual sin with my husband as often as temptation came to me. Meeting with Jesus that night changed my life forever. He was unashamed to comfort me in my brokenness, He had prepared my heart in advance for me to hear Him say, we are done here Rachel, follow me.

Since then my heart has changed to desire the things of God, eternal things with a Kingdom agenda, a repentant heart, always transparent with my Loving Father Who was stricken, smitten, afflicted, pierced, crushed, punished, wounded for my sins. The sinless Savior was my sin-bearer. God’s wrath against sin was unleashed in all its fury on His beloved Son, Jesus Christ. He held nothing back. (Isaiah 53:4-5) Christ exhausted the cup of God’s wrath. For all who trust in Him there is nothing more in the cup. It is empty! Even as Jesus hung on the cross bearing our sins and enduring the full fury of God’s wrath, he was at the same time the object of His Father’s infinite, eternal love. Should this not make us bow in adoration as such matchless love, that The Father would subject the object of His supreme delight to His unmitigated wrath for our sake?

In my ignorance and sin, By God’s Unfailing Mercy, He was willing to give me more time to come to Repentance. “The Lord is not slow to fulfill His promise as some understand slowness, but is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish but everyone to come to repentance.” 2 Peter 3:9 Praying for you friend, this day of Salvation. Do not delay friends. Come and Dwell with The Savior, You are the reason He came.

This is how God showed His love among us: He sent His one and only Son into the world that we might live through Him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son as an atoning sacrifice (a propitiation) for our sins. 1 John 4:9-10

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