Rachel You can cry, it’s okay whispers God to my heart.
…There’s one who sticks closer than a brother, remember that. His Name is Jesus.
Proverbs 18:24

I for sure would rather have people drop off like flies because of the gospel (it’s happened a few times and almost had that happen several other times that I know of)
But this separation with this lady was tragic. Not my doing. I was just Living and Loving. Lead us Father.

Even my close friend in whom I trusted,
Who ate my bread,
Has lifted up his heel against me.
Psalm 41:9

For it is not an enemy who taunts me— then I could bear it; it is not an adversary who deals insolently with me— then I could hide from him. But it is you, a man, my equal, my companion, my familiar friend. We used to take sweet counsel together; within God’s house we walked in the throng. Psalm 55:12-14

But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For His sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ. Philippians 3:7-8

Thank You God for doing things in a way that makes us move. I can’t thwart Your purposes.
Who can stop The Lord Almighty?

Forgiveness is a blessed gift In Jesus. Often times I struggle to set boundaries because I have forgiven. It feels like it goes against His Spirit but Jesus lived this all Perfectly. He knew His betrayers, nothing caught Him by surprise. He became sin for us, so that we might become The Righteousness of God.
I do not know God’s methods. Assuredly, what I’ve learned is that these things aren’t about me or the other person but about God and His Work in our hearts and lives. Truly giving up our lives and Trusting God with them. A hard daily work indeed but when we focus on Him, The Truth, we can be grateful for the seasons He gives, the work He does and The Faithfulness of God since before our time began, before He spoke the world into existence. True Daily Forgiveness is a response from those that have been saved and have Trusted God with their life. A fixing our eyes on The Author and Perfector of our Faith. The exchange is His Joy and Peace that I’ve experienced for many years with God. Jesus continues to Heal me as I walk in Obediance to Him. “For if you forgive others their offenses, your heavenly Father will forgive you as well. But if you don’t forgive others, Your Father will not forgive your offenses.” Matthew 6:14-15
This is a work of God’s Grace through The Power and Living Holy Spirit. No one can “do this” apart from Jesus Christ. It is a Miracle.

Not too mention, I love Lily still and forgiveness towards others runs deep and wide because I know My God and He can Redeem anything and anyone. My confidence is sure because He has done that with me. Jesus Loves me this I know for The Bible tells me so.

Do you know God?