Confessions of a Prideful Wife

The BLUF: The Truth Remains no matter the circumstance or means God uses for His children, run to Jesus and Live or you will die.

I love discussions with Gary about Our Lord Jesus. I am always shedding grateful tears with him lately.  He was sharing about how he has always been nonstop, a go getter ever since he was born. His mom would remind him, not everyone is like you, or can keep up with you. No doubt me, his wife agrees wholeheartedly.  I reap so many blessings from the way God created him. He takes care of nearly everthing, can fix anything, makes tangible things easy for me and his daughter as long as he’s serving. If we tried to keep up with him, we couldn’t. He says not many people can tolerate me always go go go but you do.  I said absolutely and you know I’m similar so that’s not what God has used to sanctify me.  He used the fact that you want me to be around you 24/7 while you go go go.  I think what I preferred was that you do your thing, I’ll do mine.  Like divide and conquer. So when you always want me in your presence with you, it was too much for me, tears streaming down my face. But The Lord used this to draw me close to Him in prayer.  I needed Him to be my everything or I would suffer and for sure never be enough for myself or my husband. He revealed, Come to Me Rachel, I will be your Rest. So when I did, He filled me immediately in return, He gave me endurance, He gave me resolve, He gave me fortitude to keep going, fixing my gaze on Him, I could let Gary have his way and not only that, but learn to enjoy him. This also blessed me with the company God gave. To know that to seek Him first, would be enough (Matthew 6:33). He made it so prayer was established, so He would reveal and continue to remind me Who was in charge. Not Gary, not my good works or tasks I was able to complete although important. They weren’t the sufficiency, Jesus Is.

As tears were streaming down my face, I shared with Gary the reason why when you pray over us, when we spend time In His Word together, when we gather for prayer every day at the company, it’s everything, I’m overwhelmed with Thanksgiving. Without communing with The Lord Jesus, we have nothing.

Is it any wonder any 2 sinners stay together, married for goodness sakes? It’s only by God’s Grace. He does what He wills for the purposes of His saints. We can wish we had another outcome but In submission to The Most High the only outcome is His and if The Perfect is For You, Who can be against you (Romans 8:31-39)? To go back in pride or discontent and wish something different would be contrary to the mercies of God to you. Every single morning, I must lay down my pride, thinking on how differently I could have done. The Truth Is Jesus is The Life. We get to boldly approach Him now (Hebrews 4:14-16), with His hundreds of Names on our lips, thanking Him for bringing us to this moment. He could have taken us out at our rebellious sinful ways when we were opposing Him billions of times, but He didn’t.  He Gave us Life. Let’s get on our knees and Praise The Rivers of Grace upon Grace. His Name is Jesus.

The Truth Remains no matter the circumstance or means God uses for His children, run to Jesus and Live or you will die.

This is the Day the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it!

Pour out your Grace Lord, Your Grace is sufficient. Let us have The Truth overflowing in our heart and on our tongues ready to share The Hope we have In You for the brokenness in this world that will come from our own thoughts or others. We will experience this in real time today for sure. How we respond matters. And if we truly believe You are sufficient, then You are enough. Whether others believe it or not, we must, because we know The Truth.

Joyfully His,

Rachel

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