She came outside to let her dad and I know her back was in horrible pain. Olivia never has back pain so I almost immediately thought it was a kidney infection. But no, the CT scan proved it to be a kidney stone. I called on the prayer warriors to lift her up. This stone of hardness had accumulated in her right kidney and so we checked her into the ER in good time but not before the pain became so intense she threw up several times. I am so glad this tiny “stone” (the size of a sesame seed) came out of my baby girl. As excruciatingly painful as it was, it was only 3mm. She is healed.
After everything settled down and the stone came out naturally, I said, I know there’s a spiritual application for this, I don’t have it right now but I’ll ask my Dad. She smiled, “I’m sure there is.”
One of the main statements I make around here is “better out than in”. The main reason for that is for the life of me, whenever I would run to The Lord in the beginning of my journey with Jesus I would bear down in prayer yet not wanting to share or have Him look into my heart. I thought I should keep this to myself. But by His Grace, His gentle eyes, The Light of “I’m here” reminding me that I’m no longer condemned would pierce through the wall I had built up and kept building for my self preservation and ultimately He would help me cry out from the depths of my despair, from the sin inside that I didn’t want to be exposed not even in private with Him.
This glorious mercy towards me continues every day as I sit with Jesus and give up and give Him the load. I often tell people, if I dont retreat and spend time with Jesus every day, I may die. And by die, I mean, I won’t Live In The Fullness of Joy, Peace, and ALL my God Is in that particular day, and by God’s Grace His Blood was shed so that I could and would. I must unleash, i must ask My Savior to search my heart and get every crumb of idol, (whatever i think is fun or good) crumb of bitterness, crumb of anxiety, any small thing that will exalt itself eventually and come out in a way that God has not intended. He made me for Him.
God has designed our bodies to extract things that shouldn’t be in there so every day I ask Him “Please Lord, I may not like it, I may even hate it, but expose anything that is not supposed to remain hidden, bring it into The Light, deal with us Lord kindly and graciously. Leave nothing hidden, no tumor, no illness, no hardness or hardening of heart. Bring it all out Father, In The Mighty Name of Jesus.” I am grateful for the blessing of communion with my Dad because He’s The Light and In Him is no darkness. So when God answers my prayer and exposes things that arent exactly lovely to look at or receive, I must not get angry, He reminds me to be grateful because He has indeed heard my cries. I Love You Lord, Thank You Jesus!
